Flashback Memories

Tears were streaming down to my cheeks,
As I had this "Flashback Memories"
I keep wondering....
Why things doens't always turn out the way I wanted it to be???
Though some of them are good things that happen
But still I had much more sadder things that happen too...

On the FAMILY end...
I am blessed with a Supportive family members..
who, my parents never failed to keep us in prayer.
For every bad times we are going through....
they can see it clearly, and know that we are on the edge of struggling to get through with life...
They will let us fall....so that we can once again climb up and learn our own mistake that we made
But....does we ever seen what our own parents are going through???
They tried hard to hide their problem away...hoping we do worried about them
But...is hard

On the RELATIONSHIP end...
I'm on the edge to almost giving up with relationship....
Having been making choices of breaking off with someone is just too hard for me...
When I say I LOVE YOU, I really do mean it...
I do not and never played in any of my relationship...
But....was I ever just too blind to see or was I just too naive and being fooled like an idiot???
I will always and will tell that someone
"Don't ever come and tell me you love me if you don't ever even mean it".
"Don't ever promise things you can't even do when you say you would...
This is the only main 2 reason....that will always make me wonder when I was in a relationship

On the WORKING end...
Everything on my working side actually are not on much problem...
I get along with people fairly well...
But I do hate pretender....
I learned a good things from work is ...
never gossip about anything within ur own colleague or should I say...
never ever join in a group who will gossip about others....
or else you might get your own ass into trouble soon....

On STUDY end...
I will be back to study for 1 YEARS & 3 MONTHS....
but add on the External Examination I have to take after the studies....probably 2 years...
Wish me luck on this....this might be the last thing that I ever wanna do ....
I know working and studying is not easy....but I can't bear to loose my job
Just prayed that I have enough strenght to go throught this....